Thursday, February 05, 2009

Why did I did it to my self?

Every ones in a while I find my self a bit frustrated about running my own business all alone, in addition to my full time job as a mom...
I think to my self how much easier it is to wake up in the morning take the kids to the kinder-garden and than to start a whole new day at the office, not worry about incomes, promotion and try to find time to work. and most important, to be able to come home and leave the work at work...
Then, when I have those thoughts, I look at my older son Omri, and all of them go away...
Let me start at the beginning...
3 years ago, I've worked as a costumer service manger in a very big communication company. had a very nice salary, spend a lot of time at work and felt very satisfied with myself... It all changed when my son's teacher called and told me we need to talk asap.
apparently my son is attacking the other kids and recently even bite some girl's finger so hard he almost took it of...
I was horrified! my sweet smart kid has become a cisco at 3 yrs old?!
she told us (me and my husband) that we need to be with him some more and that the whole arrangement of nursery school till 5pm and than a nanny 'till 20-22 pm is just not working for him, instead it only do him harm...
It shook my life! here I am, so busy earning money for us as family that the most important element of my life - my boy is completely forgotten in the equation!
In that moment I promised my self to put him back were he belong - at the top of our priority!
a few month after this meeting, we took him to a developmental consultant. his diagnosis was unequivocal - Omri is having Sensory Processing Disorder which make him to feel every thing around him in a much esteemed level than any normal kid. His instincts are very strong, and they control his reaction most of the time instead of a intellectual processes that should be before of any reaction... let's just say that if he was living in a jungle he would have become Tarzan...
those kids need a lot of attention, worm and stable endearment and most important a consistent routine..
Me and my husband did our best trying to juggle between a full time job and giving Omri the routine and attention that he need... that was less than a drop in the water...
but it's funny how the world works, later this year I've become pregnant with my daughter -Naomi. very early in this pregnancy I had some medical issues that because of them I had to stay at home 'till the end of the pregnancy.
At this time I saw Omri prospering. He become a happy, calm kid again like he used to be.
he still had his problems, but it was much easier to help him overcome them...
after Naomi was born, and my maternity leave was about to come to an end I saw Omri starts to shut him self down again.
At this point I had no doubt about what I'm going to do... I resigned my job and decided to start a business from home - with my kids who need their mom mote than anything!

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